What Happened???

Moving on is very hard to do right now especially when someone came in unexpectedly made you feel so special and wanted. I wish I could turn back time when we all cared about was just time spent together. What happened to the promises and plans we've made? I don't want to lose you... but you have already given up on me. I felt contentment even if there's no label to what we've had. I meant it when I said "I am at my happiest whenever I am with you". You'd be surprised but you made me feel the same way. I knew in my heart that I have given my all, and never did ask that you return the favor. I've told you that you are worth the wait. When you love someone, you have to be ready to be hurt. I always reminded myself with that thought. Maybe I have just expected too much. Will you blame me if I just stick on to the words you've said? I have trusted you. I relied to all the words you've told me. But what happened? I understand that this was strange. I understand that you have tried. But what happened? You did not give me the chance to prove it to you. I've always wanted to be the one who will take good care of you. Because you don't deserved to be treated like shit like what happened with your past relationships. You've told me that "it was the right decision to remain as friends" but did you ever ask me? You're scared that you might hurt me by finding a man someday. You always think in advance. You've never trusted me and that's what is hurting me the most. I can't admit the fact that I have lost the battle without fighting for it so hard. This is worst than a break-up. Now, I am crippled by your loss. I don't know how to move on so quickly. I know it will take time. We may not predict the future. Few months from now, one of us will find someone new. People said forget the past and move on. How will I do that if someone unexpected came into your life made you feel so special yesterday but made you feel unwanted today. I still want you to tell it straight to my face. Some thought it's a form of masochism. And I know it will be more painful but at least it will make me realize that you never ever wanted me at all. I can't move on. I don't know how to start. I don't know how to help myself. Every little thing reminds me of you. You're unforgettable. I am still in love with you. innerlight.beyb. 03/17/2014 11:42 am