Vulnerable

It’s been two months now and it’s still hurting me.
What have I done to deserve this?
Is this according to your plan?
You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve, why am I such a fool?
I gave you everything but it wasn't enough to make you stay
I'm screwing up every little good thing I ever tried to do. I think was born to lose.
I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I don't know what I want to see.
My world used to be worth living for, and now it's hard enough just to be me.
It's amazing how someone can break your heart and you can still love them with all the little pieces.
What can I do? I have gone with the flow.
I was too dependent upon your presence.
And now I’m crippled by your loss.
I could go on with my day and act like everything is okay. But as my life goes on it hurts more in every way.
I’m tired of trying. I’m tired of crying. I know I have been smiling but inside I’m dying.
What can I do? I’m vulnerable.




April11'10