Strong...

I have been fooling myself for a very very long time
Still, I don't know why every time someone talks about you, I feel uneasy.
Maybe because I still have feelings left for you
Oh yes! I still love you in spite of what had happened in the past.
These random thoughts about you make me feel sad.
Have I ever crossed your mind or do you still choose leaving me behind?
Here I am still, in my make believe world
I want to escape but I don't know how to help myself.
I'm used to facing all my fears, with you by my side
But now, I am trying to live alone without you in my life
This is the toughest challenge I really have to face on my own
To pretend and tell people "I am okay" with a smile and not with a frown
I'd guess I have to deal with it for a long time
so they will think that I am strong even if I am not.







created: july 11, 2010

EmO \m/

Forget...

Erase your memory from my mind
Like you erase fingerprints off a mirror
But no matter what,
the reflection is always inside.

My beating heart reminds me that you're gone
I know I'm all messed up
I wish I could forget
the day you came along.

You said you really cared
But you left me uncertain
I wish I could forget
So it won't be depressing to remember.

I wish I could forget
How each long and painful day
I love you event hough
you took my happiness away.

Love is a lie
A game we played
So well and great
I wish I could forget.

07-06-10

Makes me wonder...

I guess it’s you that I got used to
Now you’re not here and everything I do reminds me of you
I believed in you, I’ve hoped and I’ve cried for you
Now it’s just you without me and me without you
If only you were honest and didn’t take me for granted
If only …… then you would see
What I am about and what we could have been
But I guess it’s over now, when it even haven’t started yet
It makes me wonder what we were and what we could have been.